You know those days when everything is perfect – from the breeze of sun’s warmth to the Panera-esc lunch found in the cafeteria; from your unchipped nails to the ease of the speech you just made. If you are like me, then these days are few and far between. Every day is a struggle. Every day I deal with insecurities and hurts. Every day there seems to be just a little chaos that tries to destroy my self-worth and confidence. And some days, it seems to be too much to handle.
What is causing chaos in your life? Is it the feeling of being betrayed by a best friend? A death of a family member? A stressful test or paper? The pressures of being successful? An end to a relationship? The feeling of unworthiness? The overwhelming amount of laundry piled in your hamper? The surprise of unexpected news? Or maybe … all of the above?
I’m not going to lie to you. It’s TOUGH being a girl. It’s hard constantly being discouraged by the world around you. It’s hard feeling judgment with every step you take. It’s easy to ask “Where is the hope?”
But, why go through life alone?
Hi, my name is Halle, and for the past three years, I have discovered my passion for being the encouragement that women need. The world disgusts me with its objectifying view of women. It horrifies me knowing that women are being treated as slaves all of over the world. I can’t bare to think of how only 4% of women in the world believe that they are beautiful. Or the fact that 6 out of 10 girls stop what they love because they feel bad about their looks (Dove Research).
But the question still remains. How can I help? How can I help when I have so many struggles myself? How can I help the overwhelming amount of need required to end the pressures put on women?
The truth is I am not capable. I cannot make a change.
But, there is still hope. With Christ as my strength, I will succeed. And you will too.
Zechariah 4:6 says, “‘You will not succeed by your own strength or by your own power, but by my Spirit,’ says the Lord All-Powerful.”
You see, without God as my vision – my stronghold, my purpose – I will not succeed. I will not influence anyone. I will not be loving. I will not be an encouragement. I will not conquer any of the chaos that occurs daily!
Since August, I have had the idea of creating “She Conquered the Chaos” movement. The idea came to me when I realized that I was the one holding back from making a difference and God was waiting on my willingness. (I am so amazed by His patience with me sometimes.) Over Christmas break 2013, I was prophesied over. One of the main things I took away from the prophesy was that I was told that I should never be discouraged because no one will go as far as I will go. Wow. I still have trouble bringing myself to believe this truth, but God told me something. I have the ability and gifts to make a change in my own unique way. I am the only thing holding myself back. I relate to Moses in the way that I connect with his feelings of inadequacy. I need to let go of everything that I imagine isn’t good enough about myself and lay it at the feet of Jesus.
The story of how the name of this blog, “She Conquered the Chaos,” came into being is actually kind of funny. One day, I was just brainstorming the day away while I scrolled through my endless Pinterest newsfeed. The word “conquer” kept coming to my mind and I wanted it to be apart of this new journey in my life. The word itself felt empowering but I also knew that I wanted a phrase that was feminine (since, of course, this movement is directed towards women). But I couldn’t figure out what I wanted to conquer. My brain went blank, and for a month, I didn’t have an answer.
That’s where my roommate and great friend, Amanda, came in and suggested “chaos.” And you will not believe the irony of it. A week after we decided on the name, I had a week full of horrible news. I realized that it could not be more true that girls have so much pressure and issues to deal with, and everyday it seems like there is a new problem. But, just wait, it gets better…
As I was looking for a verse to go along with the theme, I came across the verse Psalm 46:5 on Pinterest. It says, “God is within her, and she will not fail.”
PERFECT! That was a lot easier than I thought it would be. But then, I looked it up in my Bible to see the different phrasing and context of the chapter. Um…Wait a second. Am I reading the right verse? “God is in that city, and so it will not be shaken. God will help her at dawn.” Okay, well maybe this isn’t a good idea. Nothing bugs me more than when Scripture is taken out of context, but I didn’t give up quite yet. I googled (Yes, Google has almost all the answers) a study on Psalm 46 and was amazed by the results. Here’s a quick snapshot of Matthew Henry’s Commentary of the chapter:
This psalm encourages to hope and trust in God; in his power and providence, and his gracious presence with his church in the worst of times. We may apply it to spiritual enemies, and the encouragement we have that, through Christ, we shall be conquerors over them. He is a Help, a present Help, a Help found, one whom we have found to be so; a Help at hand, one that is always near; we cannot desire a better, nor shall we ever find the like in any creature.
The city verse 5 is referring to is Jerusalem, God’s city and prized possession. God will do anything to protect the city and to build it up. Notice how Matt refers the church as “conquerors” and God’s guidance is the “worst of times”…I couldn’t make this stuff up if I tried.
I kept the verse Psalm 46:5 as the theme verse because women are like Jerusalem in a way. We are God’s princesses. He doesn’t want anything but the best for us, and I firmly believe that women can do anything when God is the focus. In our weakest moments, He is the reason we have hope. He is our peace and our confidence.
Together, we can be the difference. We can strive and create together an atmosphere of love and encouragement. Isn’t that what everyone ideally wants? To be loved and encouraged along with spreading love and encouragement. I can’t think of a better world. My hope for this blog to serve as a refuge for those struggling with the chaos that the world throws at women. I hope that my light can shine bright to those who stubble across this site. And I pray that God is able to use me in the way He attends.